Directionless?

“For the umpteenth day in a row I woke up and thought about the truth and what I needed to do about it. I didn’t have a job and I needed to find one. Interviews with nothing so much as a “yes” or even a “no”. Sifting through hundreds of job postings for jobs that I didn’t want. It all felt truly hopeless after months of no success. Finally, I applied for a job that I really didn’t want. I got the job, ended a months-long embargo on income, and stepped into another great unknown. A “what am I doing with my life?” phase. That went on for years. On the outside, it looked like I was doing plenty. But it didn’t feel right. A change needed to happen, but what? I finally let go of figuring it out. Mainly because I was tired. Years later I look back and see that the letting go let something else transform. As I sit in a new career direction that feels quintessentially me, I realize that the job I didn’t want was a pivotal moment in turning me to the direction that landed me right here. It taught me a lot about what it means to let go when I feel something isn’t working to my satisfaction and gives me hope for other ‘what next?’ experiences that may come.”

-Anonymous